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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Jul 24, 2017 4:11 pm
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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Somehow .... I Wish I Could Share
Posted:Jul 25, 2017 2:57 am
Last Updated:Jul 25, 2017 5:17 pm
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When People Are Brought Into My Life .... I Often Wonder Why And If I Was Supposed To Have Learned Something .....

I Do Know That I've Met A Beautiful Artist .... Whose Art Works I Would Have Never Taken The Time To Admire If We Hadn't Met .... A Man That Has ' Created ' Some Very Unique ,,, Interesting ,,,, And Thought Provoking Sculptures ..... Most Not Visible Because Of Overgrown Debris ..... He Doesn't Feel They're Any Big Deal .... He's That Humble ....

We May Not Be Able To Live Together .... But I Will Always Love This Man's Soul ... I Do Hope He Succeeds In Making Other Schulptures That He'd Spoken About ... It Would Be Wonderful If I Could Share Some Pics ... But As To Respect His Privacy .... He Prefers To Remain A Mystery .... I'm Grateful To Have Seen and Experienced .....
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The Thrill Is Gone .... I Suppose ...
Posted:Jul 24, 2017 3:41 pm
Last Updated:Jul 28, 2017 10:30 pm
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I've Been Rolling It Around In My Head ... How Could I Have " Imagined " All Those ' Feelings ' .... They Came So Quick .... Maybe It Was Just A Dream....

Anyways ..... Back To Being A Hermit ... Lol.... Well... Some Of Us Don't Live ' Well ' With Others....

Let's Give One Another The Peace They Deserve .... No Harm Done .....


Tomorrow Is Another Adventure
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I'm A Private Kinda Person......
Posted:Jul 22, 2017 3:43 am
Last Updated:Jul 24, 2017 3:32 pm
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I've Always Guarded My Privacy ..... Might Have Something To Do With Having Way Too Many Sisters ....

My Things Are ' My ' Things .... To Look At .... To Touch .... To Enjoy .... I Let Very Few People In ....

Living Alone Was Kinda Ideal For Me .... Even A Simple Thing Like Pictures and Bathroom Supplies .... Was ' Personal ' to Me .... I Don't Feel Comfortable ' Sharing ' With Others ....

So ... When I Fell Head Over Heels For This Guy .... Moved In and All .... We Had ... Well ... I Had Issues With All The Friends He Entertained On a ' Daily ' Basis ...
He's Been a Bachelor ... It Seems ... Much Too Long .... ( Women Need A Lock On The Bathroom Door )

People ... Of All Kinds .... Were Allowed To Room Freely ... In and Out Of The House .... OMG ..... I Tried To Hold My Tongue ..... Tried To Find Some ' Privacy ' ... Without Disrupting His ' Routine ' .....

Well .... It Was Almost Impossible .... The People Were So Very Nice And ' Happy ' People ,, For The Most .... I Enjoyed Their Company ... But ... I Have ' Business ' and ' Writing ' and ' Personal / Private ' Stuff ' ... I Wanna Do .... Alone ....
Most ' Visitors ' Didn't ' Bother ' Me Much ,,, For Some Reason It Was A Couple Of 'Women' I Had An ' Issue ' With ... The One's With ' Roaming Eyes ' .... You Know What I Mean...

So ... We Finally Had a Talk .... I'm Not Sure He Gets The Whole ' Private ' Thing Yet ... He's Been ' Open ' for So Long ...

He Mentioned That I Wanted To Change Things .... ... No... I Love His ' Happy ' Life .... Naturally ,,, Things Are Gonna Be Different ,,, There's Two Of Us Now ... And I'm A Lot More ' Reserved ' .... So ,,, We Are Both Adjusting Still ... ( I'm Silently Enjoying The Look On His Face When I Asked Him To Turn His Socks ' Right Side Out ' Before Throwing Them In The Laundry ... LMAO )

It's Nice When You Can Look At Someone And Actually Hold A Decent Conversation ... I Mean Knowing That The Other Person Is Actually ' Listening ' ... Not Just Saying " Yes, Dear ,,, " .....

We Seem To ' Compliment ' Each Other .... He Needs ' Organized ' .... I Am ' Organized ' .... He May Never Get Used To Where The Silverware Is ... Or ' Appreciate ' My ' Junk Drawer ' .... But Our ' Alone ' Time Is So Very Special ... We Enjoy Each Other So Much ...

I'm Getting ' Alone ' Time Now ... and Day By Day We Are Getting ' Meshed Together ' Nicely
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Obstacles ....
Posted:Jul 16, 2017 5:46 am
Last Updated:Jul 17, 2017 10:16 am
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Life Is Full Of Obstacles .... Big And Small .... How Many Obstacles or Hindrances Do We Allow To ' Interrupt ' Life's Journey .... Your Life ...?

How Much Do We Tolerate .... How Much Is ' Ok ' .... ?

I Try So Hard Not To Judge People .... Not To Jump to Conclusions ... Not To ' Compare ' One Human Being With Another ....

But .... Don't We Experience Some Things To ' Learn ' From Them .... ? ! So That We Don't Repeat Mistakes ....

Were They Mistakes ? Were They Our ' Destiny ' ? Were We Put In A ' Position ' For A Reason ?

Ya ... Life's Kinda Complicated .....
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What ' DEFINES ' You....
Posted:Jul 11, 2017 3:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 3:39 am
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Did You Ever Wonder .... If A Stranger Met You ... Let's Say Three Different Times... How Would That Person Describe You ....

I Recently Met a Couple ... Second Time Meeting Them ... SO .. Two Out Of Three ... I Would Describe Them As ' Low Class ,,, Arrogant ... Heavy Drinkers ... With a Side Of Drugs ' .... The Type Of People That I Like To Avoid .... Not Wanting To ' Judge ' anyone... Just Don't Like Drama That Liquor / Drugs .... Usually Produces .... Been Down That Road ... Don't Care To Revisit .... Thank You...

They Seemed To Brag About All Their ' Worldly ' Goods .... I Gathered They Thought a Big House and Such Made Them a Wonderful Contribution to Society .... Everyone Should Love Them ..... I Did Not ...

I Realize A Lot Of People On This Site ' Define ' Me by The Red Fishnet with Titties .... I Hope If A Person In Real Life Met Me I Would Be Described As A Decent ,,, Working .... Kind Human Being .....

I Would Not Want ' Material ' Things ,,, Or Titties,, to Over Rule Any Judgement Of Me .... I'm Not Wanting To ' Impress ' anyone .... I Don't Need To Drink Excessively To Deal With Life Or People ,,, And I Prefer To Stay Clear Of Such ..... I Wanna Be Free To Be Myself .... I Like Being Around Happy People .... But ' Naturally ' Happy .... Not Happy Cause You Have A New Car And A Twelve Pack In the Frig.....
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Everything Has It's Place....
Posted:Jul 10, 2017 4:20 am
Last Updated:Jul 13, 2017 4:41 pm
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I've Been Very Busy ,,, Moving My Things In and Sorting Things Around The House ... Years Of Being a Bachelor Have Caused So Much To Be ' Out Of Place ' ....

I Like Things In ' Order ' ... Makes My Life Easier .... I Want Tools Outside ( my tools belong in my kitchen junk drawer 😉 ).... Dishes Inside ... Etc...

Seems Every Thing Is Scattered ... so ... It's Taking Me a While ... Beings I'm Not Really Moving Very Quickly ... Lol... May Take A Couple Years ...No Worries

I'm Enjoying Every Minute .... I Get To Cook In Between Cleaning and Sorting ... What Else Could a Person Want ?! What I 'Need ' Is Taken Care Of ... Extremely Well ... In Between The Other .... There He Seems Very Organized ... Lol 😙

So... I'm Still In ' Heaven ' Over Here ... Still Having An Internet Issue ... Hope To Be Up and Writing Full Speed Then

Gotta Run....
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What Makes You COMFORTABLE....
Posted:Jul 5, 2017 4:23 am
Last Updated:Jul 10, 2017 4:29 am
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I Think Everyone Has Different Levels Of Comfort..... Different Things That Bring Us Peace and Harmony .....

For Me ,,,,, It's The Stress Being Lifted From Worrying If Enough Work and Money Would Come In to Make My Bills On Time .... I Prayed The Van Would Stay In One Piece Till I Could Save For Another ..... I Prayed My Old Body Would Keep On Going ....

I Am Not Sure I Can Describe the Huge Weight Off My Shoulders ,,,,, Just a Simple Thing Like A Helping Hand ....
Maybe It Would Help to Tell You... I've Always Did Things ( Life ) Alone ..... I Really Didn't Depend On Anyone... I Preferred It That Way .... I Knew I Could Depend On Myself .... I Knew How I Wanted It Done and Didn't Need Anyone ... Many Years Of This Caused Me To ,,, Not Only Dismiss Anyone That Offered Any Help .... But Continue To Stay In That World Of Solitude ....

I'd Met So Many People That Took Advantage .... I Withdrew From Meeting New Friends as I Grew Older .... I Did Not Have Time To Be Bothered ... I Kept Everyone at a Distance ...

When I Met This ' New ' Guy ...
What Attracted Me Most Was His Confidence .... He Didn't Put On An Act Or Pretend to Be Someone He Wasn't ....
Some Men Feel They Are Upfront and Honest .... But Seems I Always Could Tell Something Was Amiss....
Kinda Took Me Years Of Observing ..... But Some Men Kinda Hide Behind a Role ... Being a Gentleman To Women ,,, Treating Them Like Gold .... But at Home Alone They May Be Secretly a Mean ,,, Self - Centered ... Deceitful ... Very Unhappy Human Being ...

I Was Looking For a Happy Human Being .... Someone That Was Comfortable In Their Own Skin .... So To Say...

I Watched This Guy Walking and Wondered Why He Had A Sorta ' Strut ' When He Walked .... Almost Like a Skip ... He Acted Like He Was Happy .... He Smiled Continuously .... He Laughed All The Time ... He Was Actually Satisfied With Himself and His Company Never Caused Any Drama or Problems ... If Anyone Seemed to Do Something He Didn't Like ,, He Took Care Of It By Talking Calmly and Nicely to Them .... But Sternly .... I Was Waiting For His Temperament to Change ... His Voice To Raise ....Wow... Amazing ... that There Is A Man ' In Control ' Of His Life ... His World ...

Something ' Drew ' Me To This Man From the First Day... I Loved His Laugh ... He Didn't Need to Act Like Someone He Wasn't ...

I Didn't Think I Would Ever Experience Such Content ... I'm Living With Him Now ... I've Not Given Up Any Of My Independence .... He's So Very Comfortable With Me Doing My Own Thing ....

I've Never Had Anyone Help Me Unload Groceries Before .... and Never Expected Help ... Huge Amount of Help... Moving ... I Can't Even Explain What A Joy It Is To See The Puppies So Free and Happy ... They Now Have A Huge Yard To Wander and a New ' Big ' Play Friend .... His Dog's Head Is the Size Of Their Whole Body ... He Will ' Herd ' Them In The House When They Go Towards The Gate ... Lol...

I Am Now Able To Concentrate On More Than The Next Dollar ... I've Stopped Worrying about Little Things ( That Took A While To Adjust to ) .... I Know This Man Has My Back ... As Well As I Have His .... Our Lives Seem To Intertwine and Enhance Each Others.....
I ABSOLUTELY Am Overjoyed !!!
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OH... How I Love Thee ?
Posted:Jul 4, 2017 6:11 am
Last Updated:Jul 26, 2017 5:03 pm
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Gee... I've Hesitated Writing ..... I Think Because I Know I've Changed .... Even Though I've Tried To Stay The Same .... Tried To Think Like I Always Have.... Remain In My ' Own ' Little,, Lonely,,, World... In My Head ... Always Feeling Like A Misfit .... Staying Quietly Closed Off From The World ... You Know The Drill...

Well.... Like A Romance Novel .... The Crap No One Really Believes Comes True ... I've Found Myself ,,,, Mentally and Physically In Love ....

That's Right ... I'm No Longer Afraid Of That Word !! If You've Read My Posts ,,, You'd Have Noticed How I've Avoided The Whole Intimacy Thing ... Never Using That Word Love In A Relationship... ( I Kinda Bet There's A Lot Of Others Who Do The Same )

What Most Of You Probably Never Knew .... Some Of Us Take It To One Higher Level Of Seclusion..... Like Never Kissing Or Hugging a Person With Actual....
' Heartfelt ' Feeling ...

Hell ... I Even Dated A Married Man To Avoid Getting ' Attached ' ... I Didn't Want It .... I Only Needed Sex.... Was Good Enough For Me ... I Was Way Too Busy To Get Into A Relationship .... I Had Goals ... I Was Not Gonna Let Someone Interfere ... Besides ,, The Window Of Time I Had Available For a ' Love ' Thing Was Way Too Small .... Would Certainly Never Be Satisfactory For Any Man To Tolerate .... Love / Relationships Required a Lot Of Work and Time...

Well.... Damn ... I Was So Totally Wrong .... Stupid ...

I've Such A Lot To Say .... Too Much For One Post ... But ... In Short ..

It Is True ... I am Witness ... A True ' Connection ' .... Comes Easy .... Flows ... Is No ' Work ' At All ... Fits Right In to Your Schedule ... No Stress... No Worries ... Makes Life Worthwhile .... And Yes ,,, Changes You ... To Content ,, Happy ... Totally Fulfilled ....
A TRUE BLESSING !!
I Was One Of The Very Lucky Ones To Find .... Even Though It Took Me Till My Late 50's
I Am So Very Grateful For Everything ....
Yes... I've Changed .... My Heart Is Filled With Joy .... I Do Hope I Don't Turn Into One Of 'those Mushy ' Love Writers .... Lol .... I'll Apologize Ahead Of Time.... Cause I Sorta Wanna ' Spread ' My Joy .... My Love ....
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Stuck In The VANILLA WORLD....
Posted:Jun 28, 2017 3:53 am
Last Updated:Jul 16, 2017 2:40 pm
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.....AND LOVING EVERY SECOND !!!!

Yep.... I Have Found A Man ,,,, So Compassionate,,, Such a Beatiful Human Being ... and I Am Completely Satisfied With a Vanilla Man ... with a Side of Kink ...

I'll Tell the Story When I Get My Laptop Up and Running....

WE Finally Consummated Our Relationship,,, I know ... I Was Beginning To Think He Wasn't Attracted To Me ....
But ,,, I See His Admiration in His Face ... Amazing ...
He Treats Me Like a Queen ..... His Temperment is So Much Different Than Any Other Man I've Ever Known .... He Makes Me Laugh From Sun Up To Sun Down ! I Can Tell Him Anything .... He Does Not Get Upset , Perturbed or Indifferent....

BEST OF ALL ..... He Loves My Cooking ,,, He Says I Can Have At It !!! Yeah !!! I Am In Heaven ... !!

He Absolutely Appreciates Everything I Do ... !!!

I've Never Left Here Since I Came Over Last Thursday !😃
I'm TOTALLY Comfortable .... Totally Happy and Content ... No Stress ...

There Was One Catch ... He Absolutely Refused To Be My Sex Toy .... Lol ... He Insisted On Intimacy First ... !!!
Wow 😚
Who Knew I Needed That .... Lol
I am Running Behind... Just Wanted To Fill Everyone in ...
I'll Write More Later ,,, Maybe ... 😋

You,,,so called... Sirs and Masters ,, Could Learn A Lot From This Little,, Skinny ,,Tattooed,,, Vanilla Guy 😉

I'm on Cloud Nine . ... I. REALLY,,,,Really... Really ... Like Him And I Think He Really Likes Me... I See It ,,, Feel It ,,, Live It ,,, LOVE It ... I Will Always Be Grateful To Him For Making Me Feel Again ,,, Feel From My Insides.. which were so very Empty ... For So Very Long 😕 ,,, Which I've Hidden So Well 😋
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