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Posted:Jun 13, 2016 11:41 am
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 5:24 pm
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These messages will be private ... set up for those who can't email or standard members ... only between me and you... No worries ... ask Me anything ....
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It's NOT You ,,, It's ME...
Posted:Mar 26, 2017 9:25 am
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2017 7:27 pm
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Lord Forgive Me,,,, for Judging .... But doesn't..... ' The Distance is a Real Issue ' ..... sound like
" It's Not You ... It's Me " ?

I'm Gonna Need to Screen Even More Now .... When Someone Knows how far you are away ...... ( Well... take in account they may get lost for an hour ,,LOL... not my fault ) why Bother .... or perhaps it was all new and you've learned that the long distance was not for you ... that would be good ... that I Have Taught someone a lesson ....

Early on knowing is great ... so as I don't have to wonder how I'm gonna get a little kink out of such a shy ,,, vanilla.... ( sorry ) .... gentle man....

And Should Make Him Feel Much Better.... Knowing I Have Learned a Lesson to Screen a little bit more ... I wish him Luck... hope there's a fit for him .... closer to his liking ... no worries...

Back to Step One ..... Maybe In a Month or So ... I Have a lot to do....
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OH.... Well....
Posted:Mar 26, 2017 6:01 am
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2017 7:26 pm
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That Gentleman .... Didn't Work Out....

Distance was an issue with Him.... No Worries ... I have Time to Recoup...

No Hurry Here... A Match is Out There Some Where...

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There's Always Something ...lol
Posted:Mar 25, 2017 5:24 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2017 9:11 am
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I Was Gonna post my new profile pics .... but apparently ... all my outfits just sag on me ... they're too small....

First I Complain that they're too tight ... now too loose ... I'm never Satisfied...lol..

But ... I will either take in the sides .. or something... and try tomorrow .... I've lost 25 pounds and I am curious if it will show when I put the pics side by side ....
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Part Two.... The Gentle Man..
Posted:Mar 25, 2017 4:51 pm
Last Updated:Mar 26, 2017 9:30 am
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So... I Had a Wonderful Evening ...

This Man is 56 ... closer to my age ... and we Clicked .... he seemed to be just as cautious about ' little ' things .... things required from a partner ...as I ... and He's not one that looks or sounds ' mad at the World ' ....

No Offense ... and I perfectly understand ... but some people get older and bitter .... They haven't learned how to deal with Life's disappointments .... I Pray that I may always see an upside ..... a Positive Goal....

I've been making my job my first priority .... thinking all I need is a little sex now and then ... I don't need a partner ... I don't have the time ... and sometimes I don't have the energy ....

I think I was happy with the ' married ' man affair ... because I had no responsibilities towards him ... I could still stay alone and busy ... and get sex once in awhile ...

But Waking Up with another person in my bed was .... well... a bit strange at first ... till I just let it be... a good ...nice feeling ... life isn't as complicated as I keep making it ... I need to just let it flow...

Yes... as a fellow blogger commented in Part 1 ...I don't like being touched ... by Strangers .... silly.... but a Partner ...well... I want a partner to ' Go at It '.... my Body is His ... touch everything ......

I may very well have the word Dominate confused with Aggressive .... Passionate ... But to be Honest ... When I'm in a relationship ... I let myself go ... no inhibitions in bed ... so I thought ...lol.. ( I didn't know about the spooning ) ... So maybe I should stay away from that word.... and stick with Passionate ... I don't know ..

When on this previous Date .... the man seems shy .... Keeps asking me what I want ... In my Head I'm thinking.. ' Just Go ' ... do whatever you desire ... I'm Good ...But He was Reserved .... I don't know how to read him... if he enjoyed himself or not ... I don't know ...Sure .. all the ' niceties' were exchanged this morning ... and he's texted ... but he's soo quite ... a nice quite ,,, gentle... man ...

Next thing... the Gentle part.... I asked myself why I like it a little rough... I don't know why ... maybe my skin is thicker or something ...lol.... I wanna FEEL you on my titties .... kissing and gentle is ok to start but ... go crazy .... Bite ...
Same goes with my ass .... Go !

Though ... isn't it a Good Quality of a Man ? To ask ... To Care What I Want ... To be Gentle and Patient .... Why am I demanding that they jump into rough all the time ,,, right off the bat .... when it's not rough that I want ... It's the ' aggression ' .... sorta like ' All Out Passion ' .... and then it dawned on me ... That's the key word ' Passion ' .... when we were younger it came so easy .... when we get older and ' pull away ' the Passion Will never Come again .... We ... or I.... look at a potential partner with such suspicion and expectations to fullfill my sexual desires .... I never considered anyone to actually be a
' Companion ' ,,, with anything in their mind but sex... I suppose I had written myself off as a ' companion ' .... thinking I don't have the time for a real relationship... I'm too old ..

So ... for this Man to take his time and sincerely try to get to know me .... to slowly enjoy me .... was different ...
I Found my self being the aggressive one ... and it May Have Scared the Hell out of Him ...We Will See...
But I Mean to Keep Evaluating my issues ... I know I can't stick with all so called vanilla ... but I need to relax and enjoy the ' gentle ' and appreciate it ...
Especially ... Since Today I am Exhausted !! .... I'm Not as Young as I used to Be ... So It May Be Wise To Calm Down a Bit .... Slow Down and Smell The Flowers... Don't be so pushy or demanding ...

I'll leave the ball in his hand .. if he didn't get scared away..lol... I will slow down and enjoy ... Any Man that gets my puppies love so quickly.... must have some good qualities ...I wasn't sure they'd share the bed

I've Always Felt that Everyone is Put In Our Life For A Reason ... If this doesn't work out ... at least I've seen a part of me that I didn't know about ... right ?
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OH..MY... GOODNESS.....
Posted:Mar 25, 2017 4:20 am
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 3:47 pm
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I Had a Date....

MISSANN Has a couple ' Issues '.....

I awoke early .... gotta work later.... thinking back on last night's ' activities ' .... makes me look inside myself.... deep.... there's a problem there... somewhere... I gotta fix it....

Locating the problem ..... Wow.... Yep ... I Didn't Wanna see it... I refused to admit it .... just like when the Dr tried to tell me I was Fat..... NOOO....

Now... I've lost 20 pounds and BP is great ...Imagine carrying 4 bags of sugar around ... 10 pounds in each hand ... wow...

So.. I have learned to admit... like an adult... when I am wrong .... and I also have now realized I Have to Admit When ' Something Ain't Right '..... In my view of people or life in general ' Ain't Right ' ....
OMG... get to the point already.... lol..

I spent an evening with a Wonderful Gentleman .... and aside from being Very Nervous.... I was ' holding myself back ' ..... not only physically .... but mentally ... I felt It .... was like as soon as I started enjoying myself .... a little man on my shoulder said ' WOAHHHH..... back off Ann ' ..... I'd actually get up and do something ... get a drink ... go to the bathroom ... just to put a ' Halt ' to the .... let's put it bluntly ....' attachment ' PHASE ....

So ... sitting here drinking coffee .... I SEE where it may have started ... I am determined to watch myself from now on.... to fix it ...

Once I lost a Loved One .... After getting myself together and off the floor in the corner of the closet .... yes... was a tragic day for me.... I Withdrew .... Not ALL at one time.... Little by Little and over a course of events ... from Family to Friends desertion....I... Bit By Bit... DID NOT Like People .... Did Not trust People....Absolutely Did Not Want To Get Close To Anyone Ever Again.... I didn't feel I could handle the Pain Ever Again.....So I Withdrew...

I Came across this while having a nice gentleman try to ' Be Nice ' ... kiss... hug ... etc....
Then He Spooned Me ..... I sprung Awake !! WTH.... I wanted to pull away at first ... But Oh Was Nice ..... So why Is there something telling me to get up ... Then I realized .... I hadn't been ' spooned ' ... or have anyone ' sleep over ' .... since I was in my 20's .... now You may say that's sad .... But .. I had a happy Life ...
To Be continued... He's awake....
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Coming Out Of My Shell....
Posted:Mar 22, 2017 4:19 pm
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 7:10 pm
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As I stated in a previous post .... I put myself an ad on CL and a Vanilla Dating Site..... This is what Happened....LOL

I Never Got To even Visit the vanilla dating site ... within a matter of 3 hours ...my mailbox was blowing up !! From CL...( about 260 ) .. I quickly scanned through some .... those that didn't follow directions and include certain info ... deleted ...

I read about 5 more and came across this ' Hey , Girl ... I'm Sure You've gotten a gazillion replies ... and he went into detail about himself ... the best thing was the big shitty grin pic .... only face pic which was nice... beautiful smile ... looked like a happy man...

So ... I gave him my k..i,,k.. name and another guy who seemed ok .... then I gave up looking at email ... LOL.... I can't deal with too many men at one time.... I get them all confused ... anyway the second guy was only 46 .... he immediately showed his real self .... deleted... now I'm only chatting with one .... he's a couple years younger ... very mature... seems sincere... passed the checks ... And we are supposed to meet this weekend... not sure of specifics yet ...

I've lost a bit of weight .. even though I feel great ... I'm seeing more WRINKLES.... I'm very concerned on meeting anyone ... I'm shy anyway and don't really wear makeup.... but I believe I may have to ... I'm so nervous about the meeting ....In real life I'm sure I look much older ... the pics make ppl look younger for real...

I'm attracted to the personality ... but Men are a Different Breed

I've tried to connect with older men ... don't get me wrong ... I can click very well with them.... the Big Issue Is ....Most Will Not Text or Do Kink ... some have given me some harsh insults.... when I mention I like a little kink ... and it's In my ad !
So they obviously thought they could change my mind .... I don't know ... and I'm sure that word got the attention of most of the 260 replies....

I've deleted the ad ... I'll give this guy a whirl...lol...if it doesn't work out ... I'll concentrate on my business for a while .... I really should have my life in order before getting into anything ... we'll see.... ( Lol... he says that a lot )

Anyway ,, I can say I tried ... it's not a pleasant task... Dating ...UGGG

I'll keep you all posted ... he doesn't read any blogs ... so Good For Me ... I can be free to say anything ...lol

Update.... I asked where we were meeting ... He said ' where ever I'd Like '...... I said ' In The Dark ' LMAO .... Can't stop laughing right now to continue plans... omg....
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WOW.... Who Knew Losing Weight Saves You Money !!
Posted:Mar 22, 2017 3:15 pm
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 7:09 pm
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I still have a few more pounds to go .... but evidently ... men are noticing .... I got a flat tire on my way home today ....

All Kinds of Men Stopped to Help .... Was very Flattering ... they helped me get to the air pump at the station and then the shop on the next block.....

The Men at the Shop Were Equally SWEET ..... Thank You Homer ( owner ) ... I was able to get a tire ,,, mounted and all for $35 .... granted it wasn't new ,,, but looks Great and Got Me Back on The Road !!

Homer took my number to text me when more tires came in ... I need another in front .... What A Nice Man !! I didn't have to wait long either ...15 minutes or so... I wear tank tops / wife beaters ....lol.... and capris for work so I was not that pretty .... But Appreciated All The Help !!! Restored my faith in Mankind ...
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PORN Must Pay Good Money !!
Posted:Mar 21, 2017 2:55 pm
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 7:08 pm
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Funniest thing happened a little bit ago.... I have an ad for housekeeping .... I usually don't get much of anything from it....BUT.. Today ...

This Guy Emails saying he needed a bi-weekly cleaning on his Condo .... I asked my normal questions ..... he says ' one last thing ' ....lol..... ' I work from home ,, is it ok if I'm here while you're working ' ... I said ' Sure ' ... he said " I do adult porn in my office ,, door will be closed ..."( I'm wondering if there is any other kind than adult ) So ... I said " I will tell you like I told the Home Nudist ... I am strictly business ,, no bull .." He said " ok... but have you ever did any porn ? " I said ' No' , He Says " I'll give you $500 to change your mind " ... May I Send You a Pic Of My office happenings now ? " ..... I said ' Do Not Send Me Any Pics ... I'm afraid You'll have to find another house cleaner...Good Luck To You '

Hell ,,, Is this a normal way they scout for women ... this man didn't even know what I looked like .... apparently Porn doesn't care ... $500 to change my mind ?! Wonder How Much They Get To Perform ? Damn ,,, can you imagine the germs ... is all I could think ... I can't do....lol...
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A Very Sad Tale ....
Posted:Mar 21, 2017 8:55 am
Last Updated:Mar 25, 2017 7:03 pm
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Married ... widowed ... A woman moved to Florida to care for an ailing Father ...

What was expected to be only a couple of years ... turned into 13 yrs.... but Happy and Content .....

The Cooking ,Cleaning ,,, and working Filled Her world .... no time to even think about dating or sex ....

The years flew by ....

When the Father passed .... depression pretty much consumed her for a couple of years...

No Family to speak of .... she concentrated on her business... surviving ... starting over ....

After the depression started to cease ... she decided to join a dating site ... to basically get new friends and hopefully chat buddies ...

She ,,, innocently ,,, started chatting with a man .... loved his sense of humor ... talked for a while through text... finding out he was married was no matter to her.. ..as she wasn't thinking of having a sexual thing with him ....She told him so ...

Many chats with others turned out boring or pushy ... so she grew real tired of trying to hook up with a decent man... but in the meantime ... loved chatting with this ' married ' man ...

She discussed with him that she could never ' betray ' another woman like that or cause any problems in a marriage ... He agreed ... then She said " I'm thinking a married man is a bit safer than these ' players ' out there .... germ wise .... the Husband's not gonna want to take any germs to the Wife ....

Now ,,, Since she wasn't looking for marriage... just wanting to explore ... they started discussing kinks .... oh they clicked so well... amazing ...

An agreement was made never to even get the wife suspicious ... or she was gone .... so they met ....Both feeling that sex would keep the marriage together ,,, because sex was not happening at home....

Was a Wonderful ... Absolutely Magical time .... 4 years .... Love was not to be a part of ... just sex ... exploring ...once a week ... sometimes once every 2 weeks ... they couldn't get enough of each other .... wanting more and more ... and knowing that they Had to Wait for all to be safe .... caused them to connect through chat even more .... they went through tragedies together ,,, heartbreak from losing pets.... etc... life ...

She liked to video each session ... she enjoyed watching them ... they both enjoyed porn ... she edited some and added music .... He asked for a SD card with some on ... so he could watch .... after knowing him for 3 years she felt he was being very cautious and trusted to give him a copy ....

She had grown very fond of him .... some would call Love.... but She refused to admit it ... he wasn't available ....

One day he tells her that the wife is suspicious.... she was accusing him of watching porn that she had forbade and saw an update on his phone for a messenger she wasn't familiar with .... she asked him what it was ... he played ignorant ...
She,,, Mistress,, told him they were on break for a while .... told him to fix things at home first ... Her conscious couldn't handle the wife being suspicious ...

Then Tragedy .... a few months following .... the wife checks his phone again...

He had forgotten that he was watching the video on his phone ...the Wife saw... He was thrown out ... she wanted to Kill Him ....

Lives are ruined .... Life is in Turmoil..... Was it worth the trip .... Is It Worth The Final Stage ....
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