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Bath Time!
Posted:Jan 17, 2017 6:16 pm
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2017 6:19 pm
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Well the day wasn't all that bad after all. Feeling so much better.

Take a nice long hot bath, and then, well I was given permission, so the use of my bullet and some rope will be His bedtime story...yay!!!!

So I'll be going to bed with some tension relieved...

Good night fellow kinksters!

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Persona
Posted:Jan 17, 2017 5:51 am
Last Updated:Jan 17, 2017 5:08 pm
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No rest for the wicked they say...

Meetings all day. I like staying busy but when I have to rush it's not fun. From one end of the city to the next.

I don't normally stress out and I'm always ready, I'm a little OCDish...lol...so yes I'm always ready! But I don't feel myself today for some reason.

So I think I will treat myself later. Chinese maybe? Italian. And, maybe stop in at Love Plus...if I'm brave enough......sometimes it sucks living alone, but I also do prefer it. I don't have to answer to anyone. I can make a mess if I want to, mind you the mess gets cleaned up almost immediately.

I don't wander into kink stores on my own because of my job. I need to maintain that certain persona. I spend a lot of time with men, rough, manly type men who are not afraid to speak their minds or converse about things out of the ordinary. So I prefer not to be caught in a situation where they could view me as more than just their boss so to speak, and then have them mention they seen me in a kink store!...yah that would be something alright!

Maybe one of my friends will come with me on the weekend and I can make an excuse that I'm with them if I run into an employee......I really want to start building my toy collection again. It isn't fair that Sir has to supply most of it. And having things like that to touch in his absence will calm some of this frustration I'm sure. Even just the few things I've purchased so far give me that calming affect when I touch and see them.

Have a great day all my kinky friends...
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Exploring the Intersections of Law
Posted:Jan 16, 2017 9:14 am
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2017 4:35 pm
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“Where do we go from here?” he asks.....

I didn’t know where, I never imagined we would get to this point. He had always just been a figment of my imagination, or should I say a fantasy perhaps.

I didn’t know how to respond to him, my shyness was showing, I know I was blushing, and my body was reacting to him in several ways.

He stood, and put out his hand. Putting mine in his, he guides me towards the elevator, but walks passed. He opens the door to the stairway. We are on the 2nd floor so it wouldn’t take us very long to get to the main floor but it excited me anyway. Trying to imagine what was about to come, nervous, but knowing he will behave at work.

My hand still in his we walk down the stairs and he’s quiet, but I could feel his eyes on me. That heat of being near someone you’re attracted to can be a little unsettling at times. My knees are weak and I do my best to stay upright.

Concentrating on each step and trying to find my voice was a bit unnerving.
My imagination running wild, of course! I wondered if we were going to stop in the stairwell to talk since there was no one around. But it was a mind fuck I’m sure. It would have been faster in the elevator and he knew I’m sure that my mind would wander as we descend the stairs.

Stepping out into the fresh air helps me catch my breath. I look at him and he’s smiling so sweetly but his eyes show the same heat in them that I feel inside of me. He pulls me toward the side of the building where there was a bench.

“Sit,” he says. I sit. He stands inches from me and I could see he’s as turned on by this little meeting as I am. It’s so tempting to reach over but I don’t, instead I look up and that smile isn’t sweet anymore. “What do you want?” he asks. I wanted to say, do you have to ask? But instead I say, “Whatever would please you!” His soft laugh gave me shivers.

“You’re teasing me.” I say softly. He laughs again and he sits beside me, puts his arm around me and pulls me in to lean against him. “I’m teasing you? Maybe, but you like that don’t you?” I start to relax a little and laugh. “Of course I like it!” I said. I’m thinking fuck yeah I like it, any sane woman would!

“What do you want to do? Coffee? Have dinner and get to know each other a little bit?” he offered. Who am I to deny him time! “Dinner would be lovely.”

Sitting across from him in a small, dark, restaurant was very intimidating. I never imagined I would attract such a man but he came to me. He made the first attempt and it made me feel so wanted and attractive. This man has been with women who would stop you in your tracks and he’s interested in me!

Sitting there with my hands in front of me, playing with the ring on my finger and he reaches over and says, “Breath sweetie, there’s nothing to be nervous about. At least not right now there isn’t.” He says with a very big grin on his face and I think he has to be teasing me again.

We talk about ourselves, lives, and it comes to the now. What brought us to the restaurant?

I’m thinking of that slap to my thigh and wish he would do something to raise that heat just a little more in me.

I’m craving a little bit of a touch, whisper, dominance. I didn’t have to wait too long.

I could hear him kicking off his shoe and I feel his foot rub my calf. I sit up straight, tense a little and wait.

Playing with my fork and not tasting what I put in my mouth. He says, “Look at me. What do you want?”

“I want to play with you. I want to feel your hands on my body. I want you to spank my thigh again, spank my ass. Anything to please you!”

He stands and looks around. It’s pretty early in the day for the dinner crowd. We had the restaurant almost to ourselves. He looks towards the bathroom and grabs my hand. There’s a wall that separates the dining area and the doors of the bathrooms so you can’t tell if someone were to come from the women or men’s room.

He pulls me into the men’s room, locks the door and pushes me quite forcefully against the wall and leans his body flush with mine. “Is this what you want?” he asks. I’m breathing hard and lean against his ear and whisper, “Yes Please!” Pulling my hair, his hand around my throat, he says, “Show me how much!”

Dropping to my knees, my hands on the outside of his hard thighs, I look up into his eyes and say, “This much!” “My sweet little pet, you know so well how to please,” as he begins to unzip his pants. Watching, mouth watering, hands gripping his thighs harder, I was so ready to please him!

And a knock on the door brought us back to reality. “Another time,” he says....


CHAPTER - II
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Taken And Abused Kindly
Posted:Jan 15, 2017 6:56 pm
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2017 4:33 pm
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I work with computers most days, sit in front of a monitor, and it gets to a point where I don’t even want to turn my tablet or desk top on. Or if he has my attention I will give him all my attention. So the story I was planning on adding to has been neglected but I will continue with it soon. In fact I think it should actually be put in the magazine, not in my blog, well maybe in my blog too...we’ll see.

I was a little moody over the past couple days. And apparently I’ve been acting “cheeky”, so I get a little extra torture for it......I admitted to Him that I was frustrated and disappointed but there is nothing that could have been done about it. We did decide on another date but not going to jinx it and tell when. Maybe when he arrives I will post but not going to get ahead of myself and spill when, it’s just a matter of time because we aren’t giving up.

...I would have been feeling all kinds of soreness the last few days. Would have been moaning, and smiling from ear to ear every time I moved...

I start feeling nervous and then he’ll say something like “smile” or “safe” or “comforting” or “interest”...certain words level me.

When I start thinking about playing with him my body literally aches. I do my best to keep myself busy. I told him if I don’t busy myself he is there pulling on me...and to help make me ache more he adds, “I am pulling on you and you will release and follow!”

I’ve already given him a certain amount of control over me (Or did he take it?...hmmmm), it’s what I desire and need, he’s what I desire and need, right now!

I’ll be taken and abused kindly!
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Mother Daughter Bonding
Posted:Jan 14, 2017 8:53 am
Last Updated:Jan 15, 2017 9:03 pm
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That time...Mother Daughter day! Spending some quality time with my daughter today. We bake...lol...reminisce, and although we do have girl talk there's only so much either of us share with the other...understandable. She does know that I have a kinky side but not just how kinky.

It will be a good day. I love my daughter with all my heart. I am so proud of her. She is beautiful, successful and a great mother! The little ones are gone for the weekend so it will be a quiet one.

I wonder if I'll get a lecture from her too? She's more open than my son is so I'm guessing it will be part of our day!

Enjoy your weekend my kinky friends!
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Lectured
Posted:Jan 13, 2017 6:20 am
Last Updated:Jan 15, 2017 5:58 pm
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This morning I got a call from my son. He forgot to plug his car in and either needed a boost or a ride to work. We try boosting it but it wouldn't start so we went inside. I'm standing in the kitchen drinking a cup of coffee and my daughter-in-law comes around the corner. She stops short. I'm not at my best without a couple cups of coffee in me and this was only my first..."What?" I say, then apologized and said "Good morning."

I had just seen her 4 days ago and she never mentioned this then and she always tells me when there's something different about me. She's very open and blunt...lol...

She puts her hands on her hips and says, "What's up? What's wrong?"
"Nothings wrong, why?"
She cocks her head, "I can tell something is wrong. Your uptight and not just because you haven't had your coffee."
So I went into this little white lie about stress at work and needing a break.
"Nah that's not it, you don't stress out like that, I know you. Have you found yourself a man yet?" She says.
Like I said she's very open and blunt. She even makes me blush or cringe at times. This time I'm blushing and she sees it.
"You found someone? Really? Who? Give me details!" she gets all excited.
Blushing even more I deny it. How do you explain my lifestyle to a true vanilla person and my daughter-in-law to boot!
"But you have someone in mind?" She asks.
"I'm looking ok!" Didn't know what else to say.
I'm an open book. Everything reflects on my face so it's hard to even tell little white lies.
"Well by the tension I see in you," and she walks around me and grabs my shoulders, squeezing, making me yell, "and how hard your muscles are you need something in your life...maybe the D?"
I laughed so hard I had tears running down my cheeks. The "D" she said. Which to her would be Dick of course but in my mind I'm thinking Dominant.

My son tells me it's time to go and from the laughter I feel a little bit of the tension leave my body.

As we are walking out the door my daughter-in-law tells my son, "Tell her she needs a man in her life. If she doesn't find one for herself I'll find one for her."

My son shakes his head and walks out. He's a very quiet man, and doesn't like confronting me or telling me what to do because he knows better...lol...but he clears his throat and goes on to explain he noticed that there's been changes in me the last couple months (since I've been back on alt) and that I should really think about some changes in my life. Wow...eh!

I don't say a word and keep driving. He's quiet for a while and I was wondering what was stewing. "You do need someone in your life mom. Your not getting any younger and I know you get lonesome. So I really think you should find someone to spend time with then you'll spend more time at home relaxing."

I'm speechless. Pissed me off too. I don't say a word. If I had well...I'll leave it at that.

We stop in front of the University and he turns to me and says, "sorry mom but that's the truth. I know your happiest when you have a partner and I just want you to be happy."

Now I am feeling guilty for being pissed off and he only wants what's best for me.

But to be lectured by my kids is one thing but told I need the "D" is another...lmao
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Pre-Law
Posted:Jan 12, 2017 7:10 pm
Last Updated:Jan 16, 2017 4:36 pm
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I'd just like to say that this is a story that I wanted to share with everyone. It will come in short chapters because it would most definitely be too long and too exciting for one post...lol...enjoy!

Jumping off the Train my mind wanders. The thought of this man gives me chills, yet puts fire in my veins. I have never called a man beautiful before but he is most definitely beautiful in all senses of the word. When I think of him I think Dominance. He’s strong, powerful, and can put me in my place with a quick glance or a gesture. I walk and breathe in the spring air of the mountains, thinking, if only.

As I walk into the courthouse I look around, wanting just a glimpse of him to satiate my eye and the cravings of my body. So many suits, I look for height and strength, for the amazing eyes that I know would ignite that fire in me. I don’t see him, and I’m disappointed.

It’s time to go in I’m told. Court room 6 is filled with friends and family. The trial starts and as I listen to the lawyers make their statements, my mind wanders again. I glance around the room. He knows I’m here, will he show up like I hope he will? He knows all I want is to stand face to face just once so that I can get passed this curiosity I’ve had about him.

Witnesses are called and I know it’s getting close to the end for today. I look at the time and hope that maybe tomorrow he will look in and allow me a glance. My cell phone buzzes and I see a message from an unknown caller. It’s says, “The back row is empty, go sit in the far corner farthest from everyone.” I look around and I don’t see any one I recognize, but I knew who it was. My body reacts and I can feel my heart racing.

I move as quickly as I can but not as quick as I want to. I sit, I wait, I watch. I start getting nervous because people are watching me. My family knows nothing of my kinks and I definitely don’t want them to know. Then I see him. That Dominance walking directly towards me, but sits in the seat directly in front of me. I shiver with desire. I can’t sit still but he turns around and tells me “stay!” I stay!

The trial continues but I don’t hear a thing. My focus is on his wide shoulders, his beautiful neck, his tailored suit and how it clings to his muscles. I shiver again, I squirm in my seat, and I’m sure I let out a small moan as my panties tighten against me. I cross my legs to get a little relief but it only frustrates me more.

How much longer do I sit here? He said stay. I want to lean forward to smell his scent. I want to reach out and brush the skin just under his earlobe. But he said stay! I stay! My cell phone buzzes and it’s unknown again. Opening it and reading, “good girl!” Almost like he read my mind and sending me into that soft lovingly space.

Court is in recess until tomorrow morning and I'm disappointed because that means I have to leave. My phone buzzes again, "don't move!" I stay! He turns around and sits on the chair sideways. His eyes boring into me, stealing me, I stay! "Tell them you will follow along later, that you want to stay and chat with a new lawyer to get information."

My Brother comes and introduces himself, shakes his hand, and says to me, "it's time to go." I explain that I was going to stay and speak with, nodding towards him, since he's a lawyer and I could get information from him. My brother walks away and I stay!

Everyone is gone, just him and I are in the room and he's still watching me. I feel nervous but excited. My leg is shaking and he reaches over and places his large hand on my knee, calming the shake. His hand slowly makes its way to my thigh and I sigh very loudly.

A security guard comes in and says it's time to go but when he sees the man sitting in front of me he says, "take your time."

"How much time do you think we have to take, in here?" he asks me. I am lost for words and finally squeak out, "As much time as you would like Sir!" And his hand begins to roam over my thigh again. I shiver and he feels it, grinning very widely, he pinches my thigh and I moan.

He turns the chair around so that he's facing me. Puts his brief case on his lap and leans on it, his chin resting on his fist. I take a good look at this gorgeous, beautiful man sitting in front of me and wonder why me, why is he attracted to me?

He sits there, feels like an eternity. His gaze makes me weak. I can't move, it's like he has put me in some sort of trance. How long has it been? Seconds, minutes? And I hear it before I feel it...as he slaps the inside of my thigh. It perks me up, I almost stand up but his hands settle on my thighs just above my knees. I am at full attention, and he grins and I could hear a chuckle come from him.

"Where do we go from here?" he asks......

Stay tuned...another piece will be added tomorrow or the day after!


CHAPTER - I
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Dreaming Of What Will Be
Posted:Jan 12, 2017 4:00 pm
Last Updated:Jan 14, 2017 8:45 pm
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Looking out our window,
with cuffed wrists,
sipping red wine,
feeling content.

He undresses me so slowly,
he inspects what is his,
feeling wanted.

Bound to the armchair,
rope gets tighter,
interrogated,
feeling fear.

Curled up on the floor with my head in his lap,
next to the warmth of the fireplace,
feeling enlightened.

Tied to the beautiful soft bed,
spread out for only him,
completely blinded,
feeling vulnerable.

Sound of the chain as I prepare,
I serve only him,
feeling of use.

Used,
beaten,
feeling free,
as I thank Sir for his time!
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Liberty
Posted:Jan 12, 2017 11:46 am
Last Updated:Jan 12, 2017 11:48 am
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I'm not a history buff, and I like to share cool and significant things that have some meaning to me. This lady was an important part of my childhood stories, my great grandparents immigrated from Ireland and according to my family history their first stop in North America was NY.


The Statue of Liberty was a joint effort between France and the United States, intended to commemorate the lasting friendship between the peoples of the two nations. The French sculptor Frederic-Auguste Bartholdi created the statue itself out of sheets of hammered copper, while Alexandre-Gustave Eiffel, the man behind the famed Eiffel Tower, designed the statue’s steel framework. The Statue of Liberty was then given to the United States and erected atop an American-designed pedestal on a small island in Upper New York Bay, now known as Liberty Island, and dedicated by President Grover Cleveland in 1886. Over the years, the statue stood tall as millions of immigrants arrived in America via nearby Ellis Island; in 1986, it underwent an extensive renovation in honor of the centennial of its dedication. Today, the Statue of Liberty remains an enduring symbol of freedom and democracy, as well as one of the world’s most recognizable landmarks.

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PLACES!!!
Posted:Jan 11, 2017 9:22 pm
Last Updated:Jan 11, 2017 10:37 pm
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I'm sorry Sir but I just have to share...lol...with a little extra tid bits.

So imagine me hand cuffed with a glass of wine in my hand......

I sent him a similar one. And he says, "Now that is teasing. The plan was for you to be handcuffed and drink your wine as I showered. Are you being sassy?"...and I say, "You see right through me. Sassy, who me!" He added more but that's for my eyes and thoughts only!

So I like certain types of food. They can be very sensual if you want them to be.

Just some of what I was going to feed Sir while together.

And a full meal after a session that I'm sure would have taken me places!
Oh MY!
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